A letter (to myself)

Dear Leah,

I'm not going to beat around the bush here - it's time for me to just come out and say it: you're getting a little pudgy. Especially around that middle area. I know you are aware of the situation, and I think now is a great time to take action! You know maybe some exercise, better eating habits, or even just cut back on the smoking/beers. It's time to lose some of those squishy bits.

Love,
Leah


Okay in all seriousness - I need to do something to get healthier!

I really have gotten squishy and I don't like it at all. Someone recommended that I try the "from couch to 5k" plan. Maybe I will! I'd like to be able to run a 5k sometime in October. I think that's a pretty realistic goal, don't you? I wonder if I could get there on 3 workouts a week. Shall we find out?

Saw this picture. Let's find out if it's true ;)

Desktop

I have finally organized the files/folders on my work computer. It was getting out of hand there for a while. I even gave myself a new wallpaper as a reward ;)




Okay this is embarassing I guess.

Dearest internet world

Coming back to work from vacation is difficult. Went to Door County, Wisconsin Saturday morning (early! Left at 7:45 a.m.!) Came back on Tuesday night around 11 pm. Thankfully I've only got to work a short week, but damn....it ain't easy. I knew when I left work last Friday that I would have a ton of stuff to catch up on when I came back, but really I didn't care. You know, with vacation on the brain, haha. But now...OOOOOOhhhhhhh now. My to do list is out of control and I just keep avoiding it all! *cough* writing a blog entry *cough*.

Anywho - I've got myself a somewhat reasonable to do list, and I am posting it here. As a "fun" thing to do! You better believe I'll be checking things off as I go. Yay, list!

11:15-12:15
work! (begin working on scary pile)
12:15-12:45
lunch!
12:45-1:30
donate blood!
1:30-3:00
work! (continue working on scary pile)
3:00-3:15
break! (go to market, pick up supplies for tonight)
3:15-4:15
work! (again...scary pile)
4:15-4:45
plan top secret birthday adventure for Amanda :}

Woo!

Unrelated

Butterflies

Inexplicably, I can't stop smiling today. Despite the fact that I woke up late, and didn't have time to wash my stinky hair. I'm just in a really good mood. Spent the night in the burbs last night with my mom and brother. My littlest baby brother is en route to his new apartment in DC today! He's got himself a nice job lined up, and he seems pretty happy (with a side of nervousness).

In some ways, I feel nostalgic thinking about that feeling I had after graduating college - like the world was at my fingertips (corny, I know). But it's true. And at the same time everything seemed ridiculously far away and unattainable. College really does prepare you for all sorts of scenarios, but it didn't really prepare me on how to get to those scenarios, haha.

Of course, my brother is in a totally different boat than I was. He had his job lined up before he even graduated! How does a senior in college have that much forward thinking?! I know I certainly didn't. When I graduated, I ran away to Australia. As we all do at some point.  I'd had a nasty break up towards the end of my senior year, I had absolutely NO idea of what I wanted to do as far as jobs go. So when a friend asked if I wanted to take a 5 month adventure to Australia with her, of course I said yes! And you know what? It was awesome and unforgettable. There were so many days when I was there that I just appreciated. I appreciated the fact that I was able to be there. I appreciated the people I'd met, and the beautiful things I got to see. I appreciated my dad giving me some frequent flyer miles to take the edge off the cost of the plane ticket. I appreciated the 3 bedroom, penthouse apartment that I shared with 9 people in downtown Sydney. God, I've never felt so appreciative so many consecutive days in a row! It was awesome.

this is how I look when I'm pretending to be brave. and not think about falling to my death.



the view from my Sydney apartment.


I don't know how I went off on that tangent, but anyway, I'm happy for my brother. He's graduated. He's smart as pants. And he's making twice as much as I am in his first job out of college! Haha, none of that surprises me though.

That reminds me, I should probably get back to work now ;)

Oh - the icing on my good morning cake! My lovely girlfriend telling me that my text this morning gave her butterflies. Gah, I love the crap out of that girl.

Weird

Do you ever have days where you just can't get...comfortable? Physically/mentally. I certainly am having a day like that. My littlest heart won't stop racing, and my eyeballs are seeing bright purple lines from staring at computers all morning. My head feels sort of detached and loopy. Maybe it's this heat that's getting to me! I don't know, but I sure don't like it. Perhaps chugging a cup of hot coffee on an empty stomach when it's 100 degrees outside isn't my best idea. Shocking, I know!

Hello

I would like to share a timeline of my day with you. Please read if you are interested.
- Getting ready for work & watching the news: non stop coverage of a runaway dog. Helicopter footage and comentary. No weather or traffic today! (Don't worry, they caught the dog).
- Late to work due to runaway dog coverage
- Newly died hair is a little bit too dark, me thinks.
- ANDY GRIFFITH HAS PASSED AWAY :(
- Cancelled doctor appointment b/c well, I feel fine thank you!
- Found out that we are NOT getting out of work early today, as previously thought. Ef that.

That's all for now. Stay tuned.
Also, I am going to look for recipes for grilled chicken as tomorrow is the 4th of July and grilling seems appropriate.
Bye!

Observations

I'm reading this book at the moment. It's called Cosmic Consciousness, and if I had to sum up what it's about so far I'd say it's about the evolution of consciousness. Basically, the author is suggesting that there's no reason to believe that our consciousness has/is/ever will stop evolving. I think it's super interesting, and I get excited reading it. It is certainly not an quick read - in fact it reads kind of like a philosophy book with lots of "if this means this, then this logically means this, which in turn would imply that this means this!". I'm still at the beginning of the book, and I can't wait to see how I'm feeling once I reach the end.

Anywho - on one of my favorite bloggy sites, I came across this article: Self Absorbed is the New Normal. In some ways it blends in nicely with the book I'm reading. I think that the increased focus on self awareness has brought about a wave of self absorbed, egotistical, close-minded folks. Of course, that's a sweeping generalization, but I do think it's the product of our current culture.

I'm going to the post office at lunch today :\ wish me luck!